A year of my life has come and gone,
as though it passed
in just a second’s time.  
I had lived many days
filled with so much regret;
continually asking myself
what if I had been
the person I am now,
would it had made
a difference in our outcome?

I realize now that
we are two different people.  
But, does it really matter
that we grew up differently,
or one has more than the other?  
Because I know, and believe,
that true love stems
from an internal understanding
of one another, and is
not based on materialism,
or circumstance.  

Letting go of the regrets
has freed me from a life of guilt,
and “what if’s.”  
I am proud of the woman I am now.  
I know that I could not have done
anything differently,
or I could not have
loved you more than I did,
not only with my words,
but, with my actions, also.  

I am now free to find a new start,
a new direction.  
Without this burden,
I can clearly discover
what the world
has in store for me now -
whether that means a new love,
or a new dream.
Whatever it is,
I am not so sure, right now.
But, with each day,
the path will become
much clearer in my mind;
as this haze of uncertainty,
which is like the early morning fog,
that envelopes the countryside,
will begin to dissipate
little by little, with time.  

At least now I am not
so scared of failure,
as I have been taught a very
valuable lesson.
I have learned,
in a very hard way
that letting go
is not as simple as
one thinks it should be.
However, it is
truly necessary
in order to proceed
through the new door
that has just opened
before your eyes.    

Vicki A. Zinn

May 4th, 2013