Sometimes. Only a rare sometimes, will I stay awake.  I stay awake and watch my life flow past my eyes. It moves so quickly.

     I remember I was young. It was hot and the night shift. You were bored. I was bored. You wanted to have fun.  So did I. You had a girlfriend. I didn't know.  We almost had fun.

    I remember freshman year. You called me fat.  You called me ugly.  I grabbed a blade. I couldn't do it.

    I remember two weeks ago. You invited me to a party.  I didn't want to do anything I would regret.  I've never been drunk.  I have never cut myself.  I have never done drugs.  I am a ******.   I am a mountain

Since high school started, life flashes across my eyes. It caresses my face and tells me I am a warrior. That I am strong.  I am proud. I have conquered the negative.

I am genuinely happy. God has granted me with such an amazing life.  With amazing people.  I wish sometimes there was a way that I could thank those of you who have harmed me.  You will never know how much I appreciate it because you have change me for the better.

Now that I know the purpose of others in my life, I must find out my own.  I used to pray that I could be a bird so I could fly far far away.  I live with an open heart.  Come at me. Life is oh so good so good so so good.