they've got an edge going down and at first it feel good it feels right but then the edge becomes a burn a slow burn, dragging your coeherency down with it they catch in your throat, choke you you can't breathe you feel like you're drowning but you don't stop can't stop and suddenly it becomes an addiction it's wrong it hurts you feel like it'll never end but eventually you've thought yourself to sleep and you wake up the next morning with a headache and a bad taste in your mouth that tastes a bit like forgetting
this is what it feels like to lie awake at 3 am with anxiety and depression