with a clatter and crash the q-tips fall to the floor her broken skin a pale ash white, clammy and cold contrasting the metallic hue of her blood spilling down her arm saying dearly i’ll miss you i can’t go on like this
a beautiful diabetic girl with so much to live for a diamond in the rough, a pearl among the splinters feeling one-thousand percent alone and done with being herself ripping her heart to pieces shown to absolutely no one
little does she realize she has a cloud of support to fall back on, her eyes deceive her looking in the mirror stumbling blindly around a vast and empty ocean trying to float every moment is her last suspended in a single second and her rope could twist and break and she would be gone in a snap when each day is a constant give-and-take of her emotions and i wasn’t around
you fell and i wasn’t there to hear it
i lived in your house you were not my friend you were my sister and i didn’t know the way you cried the blood you shed the thoughts that plague your head and trouble your mind and you trouble mine
and i’m sorry i didn’t see we may have grown apart physically you are and always will be in my heart and in my soul i’m sorry i wasn’t always there but now i am i promise
you mean so much to me and your ocean’s not empty it’s filled with creatures of the sea and the coral and the tide an amazing unexplored wonder 20,000 leagues under
you can scratch the surface but you’ll never destroy the beauty underneath
the duckling was never ugly or wrong it had forever been a swan its agile grace a quiet blessing saved until the unfit traits were finally abandoned
you will shed away your tortured skin and leave behind your mortal coils you will mend up your ruptured heart and heal to somewhere over the rainbow
with the burning passion of a thousand bright suns it’s okay to hate yourself so long as you don’t let the light grow cold or fade out someday you will shine bright your scars show you’ve valiantly battled the demons under your skin so don’t forget to fight
mama said there’ll be days like this and each day can be torture but someday you will recover so stay golden, ponyboy brush the dust off and glow
(i'm changing parts of this for better structure so be on the look out for that to change)