There is chaos here
Inside my head
Quit trying to analyze me
You won't get me any more than I do
Just ask and I'll tell you all I know:

I am pandemonium
Absolutely insane
At times I am one way
At others I am another
Sometimes I can't remember what I've done
Where I've been
Who I am

I am anarchy
The rebel yell
A superior genus of rage
My anger is endless
But I can't let it show
Unless someone feels to close
I won't let it free

I am ugly
Appearance
Personality
Thoughts
I am hideous
And I wake to the knowledge daily

I am bitter
I let my wounds fester
And when the seep with the unresolved
They are the fuel I use
To snap out at those who try to know me
Stay away

I am desperate
After my fangs have ripped you open
Put yourself together
And reach out again
And I'll follow
Like the dog Life's made me into
Never again will I bite
The hand that feeds me

I am greedy
It's yours, so I want it
And if I can't have it
I am jealous
I am green
I am murderous
Give. It. Here.

I am hateful
They say they are ugly
They say that to me
How?
Can they not see my face?
Who's ugly, compared to this?
I hate them.

See?
I've told you all about me
Why you'd want to know? I've no idea.
There's more, of course
But I've disgusted you enough for the day
Now shoo
Go away
Or I'll bite
I'll kick
I'll scratch
How dare you try to get close?
I won't show you how I actually feel!
I wear this smile- even through the tears

And when you enter my room
And see me strung from the ceiling
Eyes ever open in death
I'll still be smiling
Like the insane girl I am
As testament to
The pandemonium inside me.