just hormones i tell myself not real pain not a big deal but everything hurts and i want to die just hormones hiding behind eyeliner it masks the red i wasn't crying allergies mine are bad this time of year i wasn't sad why do you ask? how ridiculous i don't get sad i don't need help i just need some time alone no people just the static crackling of a car radio a few yards away a talk show with the volume **** turned too loud screams and laughter from where my friends stand they aren't like me they don't want me i don't want them i'll hide in a corner hide behind a mask of eyeliner and lip gloss cloaked in shadows drip drip goes the water it's cold over here but hidden nobody can see me i'm just another person on their phone clipped into technology indifferent not in pain just hormones i remind myself you aren't really hurting the slightest touch will turn your eyes into waterfalls so stay hidden stay safe it's ***** over here bird **** on a window how is it that even possible? moist disgusting guarded by 6th graders to afraid to approach me but i can feel their eyes on me creepy pasta is what they discuss as they beat their violin strings with their bows unpleasant noises there's my mom's car pulling up get ready smile energy brush your hair back natural act natural "How was your day?" hard "Fine" it's just hormones.