One wolf to another I crave fear, I live on it Decisions are made based on it If I can't feel the rush of anxiety Then I can't feel anything at all
Fear is like the catalyst to it all It's like the prism Through which I can respond to The many lights of the world
Nothing is scarier than you If you mean all that you say I'm already feeling the symptoms of fear How can I not?
How is a candle to react When it's whole life has been lived in darkness When it finally sees another The flame burns a new color The flame burns with the same intensity
Suspicion would be natural Caution would be instinctual But what about jealousy An aching so primal to ***** out The flame from it's own wick Just so it can share this new foreign flame
What if it feels like if I were to execute myself To be alive in this new thing That as soon as I saw all that I am Once I saw my demons rush at me No longer held back be a soul on fire You would either rush me along side them Perhaps you would just run away Maybe I'd even run
More than anything This wolf in front of you Emaciated and caught in traps too many to count Is terrified to the point of psychosis That she will bite That she will wound fatally
It's the lack of everything that fuels her What if one less leak makes the water rush in faster What if the insanity of loneness Is a cake walk compared to the hot mess that you inspire
This was written on October 15, 2009. This was one of my insomniac tangents that kind of was maybe sort of poetic.