when it rains everything seems still her body has the curves of the grooves on wood following the path of a moth a woman and three children in a van drop off phone books and newspapers onto front steps at 4am and it rains nothing plays on their radio she kisses them to sleep “don't worry” and they're asleep but the bills aren't paid and the hot water is turned off Tomorrow the electricity a boy without a home grew up on the highway the passing vehicles the passing buildings people street lamps hills rivers and lakes streets and turn signals were his friends his television When it rains Everything stops moving and breathes I am still a boy at twenty When I can't sleep I walk to the highway and sit the humming road the humming 18-wheelers and automobiles remind me of resting on my mothers heart I drive to the city To look at the buildings that are never asleep To sit in wooden cafés and drink cheap black coffee I am not a poet Just a boy Still on a highway gazing at the world 75mph these are my finger drawn pictures on a foggy van window.