Even though I can be sad for
Many days at a time
You will grow to love me
Despite of that
You will see
When I smile
You will love me
Because when someone
Or something
Makes me smile
It is clear how genuine and
Relieving
It feels for me
To be able to be
Pulled away from my sadness
If only for a short while
Like the very first breath of air
You desperately **** in after
Coming up from the walls of water
With nothing to taint its honesty
Beauty and effortless
Complexity

When I can smile and
Feel it all over and
All inside of me
Feel my eyes light up and
My chest overflow with helium
I am my most beautiful
Completely contained by
Every single commodity a
Smile is compiled of
It is a lovely phenomenon

I am living proof that
Tragic and sad things
Will always be a certain kind of
Beautiful
That a mind is a
Terrible thing
But that the most genuine and
Honest of beauties
Always comes from something
Unexpected and
Opposing

There is a certain part of the
Human soul that is drawn to
All of which is
Born and created from the
Presence of tragedy and
Sadness
A smile that emerges after a
Seemingly tireless bout of
Searing sorrow
Like those sunshine rays that
Reach down and
Take over the world after
Two days long of rain and clouds

I am terrible
And lovely
And difficult to love
Something and someone
No one is
Ever quite sure of
A beautiful tragedy