the sky was red with
your pain
when you thought it
wouldn't show
you tried so hard to
reach out to me
& my god,
I didn't know

I'd fight Him just to go
back to that May
in the center
of my living room;
on that very
last day
I'd give anything to
change the tune...
of when you begged me
to let you stay


honey, this cannot be
the way

to ever wish you
happy birthday


but it sinks into
my skin
just as our son's eyes
do when he gleams
your inherited
grin

of why life was a choice
for you
I will never
comprehend

but I'll hope you're
forever proud
of us
& the way we've
kept our
end


until we meet
again