Usually there is elation
When I see your name
On my screen.
Excitement!
Anticipation.
Just from one
Notification,

But tonight.
         There was
                       a crack
in my conscience.
And I missed you
So bad
That when your name
                appeared,
I left it alone.
In hope that it would
                    make you feel
Just as lonely
As you left me tonight.

silly girl.
     silly
        silly
            silly
                             girl.

the only one you're
making feel
                   anything
is
      yourself,
and you're just
                          lonely;

all over again.