A crushing terror
Combined with error
I can’t breathe
Quivering like a leaf
As I fall down,
Down this deep empty hole
Where I’m worth no more than a meaningless mole
I feel like a mime
Staying silent so I don’t explode
While I’m riding down this seemingly endless road

The thing is
Knowing you’re making something out of nothing
Knowing that I can breathe
Even though it feels like my lungs are closing in
Collapsing in on each other
Knowing that it is irrational
Don’t say I’m emotional
Therapy does not work
They cant fix my quirk
Method after method after method
Feeling neglected

Collapsing inside
Wating for the pain to subside
Yelling to keep others
From becoming my fear
It can be anything
One cough
Twitch
Sound
It comes like a wave strong and fierce
Like feeling the first pierce
Of a blade as it brushes your skin

In 2016 2⁄3 of college students reported having overwhelming anxiety
You see what pressure people go through
Whether it’s about
Homelife
Social life
School life
Homework
Or diagnosed anxiety

Once I had a friend
A knife slit her wrists
Spilling blood onto the floor
What more, what more, what more
An internal struggle
Her thoughts muddled
All I could do was watch
As she fell down this empty dark chasm
With no possible way to escape
Not a single way out
I can’t do anything
I’m a statue in her garden

I wish I could run
Wish I could hide
But I’m the friend
That you confess and confide in
The one that you trust
When I leave I worry I will never see you again
Not because you’ll leave
But because the knife will slit too deep
I know its selfish
But I just wish
I could change everything for you
But soon its all going to be darkness and gloom

Then you stopped writing
You stopped calling
You stopped caring
I know you’re there
But why does it feel like I’m the only one here
Send me a sign,
just to let me know you’re fine

So I’m not stuck in the in-between