I turn to a new clean page To start a new chapter in my life To forget the past, to start anew To paint a picture that is not filled with tears, pain or suffering A picture where I don't cry at night, rather I sleep soundly A picture where I see my body as a home, rather than filled with cracks and flaws A picture of the images of my imaginations, filled with sparks of life and magic
But that page still has stains From the broken parts of me...from the past Rain stains, that fell from my eyes with gray and dark blue ink from the times I was on the verge of falling off that cliff of stability, on the verge of losing it all and giving up Blood stains, from the times when I drew a straight red line with a silver pen and see the red paint dripping down on my arms Those battles, some almost ending in defeat But most of all, I see the aftermath of a storm Stains of debris of trauma, fear, and heartbreak From the times where I have learned that When you fall, no one can catch you Not even your friends....who you thought you could trust Who you thought will never leave you, but lied
Although I turn to a new page To a white, pure smooth piece of paper There will always be the stains of all my pain that will never go away