Many times I just want to get these thoughts out of my mind
I feel the need of a person who will sit beside my body
Be patient while I try to form thoughts into a storyline
Understand me while I'm understanding myself
But then I remind me
People don't care
They only want you to be okay
Because when you have those suicidal thoughts
The thoughts you acted upon and now you're gone
They want people to think they were here for you
They don't want to feel like the reason
Or that it could be avoided because of them
And that's just society nowadays
People only care for the show not for the heart.

- 01/18/2020