Yesterday My inner demons were disturbed From their slumber
My tired bones Became vulnerable My mind, overrun
I fell asleep Only to be woken By the 3am voices
'You have got this wrong' 'You have made too many mistakes' 'You wonβt get through this' 'You are going to die'
In the pre-dawn hours I cling to my sleeping wife for comfort And I whisper to myself 'There is only love' 'Only creativity Only love' But still the demons mutter their dark spells And I start looking outside of myself For easy answers
Who will fix this for me? Should I run away And start somewhere better, easier
And I try to soothe myself By chanting again 'There is only love, only beauty I will not let these thoughts dominate I will banish them With my love'
Yet, still they are active Strange as they are And I guess I have to live with them Understand them Before they will quieten Or disappear
I am a human entity Made of spectral dust And I behave in this way Thanks to my life And everything within it
And perhaps somehow In the dark of that night I grew a little
I understood myself better I did not crumble I just waited And it did end Eventually And I did sleep And I am still alive Ready to face one more day To do battle With my own life Again