sometimes i think to myself

yes we all experience pain different ways..
so it makes me think

what if mine are worse?
what if  i been in pain for so long
so long that i dont know what its like to feel normal?

i try not to realize my whole body hurts
feels like im going breath to breath
WHAT ABOUT YOU?

think as if my heart murmurs
feels as if i have a vein
from my leg up my side
all the way thru my heart
into my shoulder into my left hand
even touching my brain

i feel pressure non stop
everytime i move i hear bones crack
soo...
i just wonder???
do i not feel pain an if a normal person was me?
would they still be here to tell this story?