You called out of the blue.
I couldn't believe that it was you. 
But the caller i.d. said your name.
You had dismissed my presence for so long that I was in awe.

You asked to come over.
I let you in.
I couldn't believe my eyes.
All the feelings I had for you starting rushing back in like they were a river pouring through me.

We starred at each other reminiscing on our memories together.
The connection that had always held us up was there,
It was as clear as the sky and both of us could see it.
Maybe it had never really left.

I could see in your eyes that it was taking everything in you to not lean forward and kiss me.
The ****** tension started rising up in both of us.
My head was screaming yes.
But my heart was shaking no.
I had been unconsciously waiting for this moment for as long as I could remember. 

So I gave in.
I went with my head.
As soon as I knew it we were lying in my bed and you were outlining my body with your hands.
I craved your touch.
You were the happiest I had ever seen you,
You always were when we were together.
I wanted to stop time and live in this moment forever.

Even though this moment was perfect,
Everything in me knew I should say no and screamed that this was a bad idea,
But I was too happy to listen to anything besides his breath.
He was everything I wanted.

I could see he was falling back inlove with me.
We both were.
It was scaring the **** out of us.
Right when he realized his feelings he pulled as fast as he could away.

He thought we could just use each other to fill the gap of loneliness.
But nothing ever goes as planned, with us.

He finally left and I was then stranded with my feelings,
All over again.