Please excuse me if just for a moment It’s been awhile since I felt like I might not cough out my ribcage But what difference would it make really if I already feel unprotected The feeling of vulnerability is nothing new but it’s never felt so prominent Simply the thought that everyone else knows That things aren’t as good as I intended to make them believe But that’s no business of theirs anyway it’s not like they’re going to help That’s why I’ve always buried it away but now it’s getting harder to keep down One too many times I think I’ve slipped up and lit myself up with flashing lights I am a liability a failure a malfunctioning existence looking for a way out How am I expected to have anything to offer when I never asked to be here Forced together and wound tight sent off before being factory tested This doesn’t feel like delicate finesse or experienced craftsmanship It feels like a doomed experiment Any scientist would be condemned to death for my creation But I’m here and I’m trying to rearrange all these wires to see if I can make anything out of myself I know what I am and I’m sorry for most everything I’ve ever done But preforming surgery on yourself is more difficult than it looks ~W.C.