Where does this **** go?

"Oh, this ****
I gotta analyze this.
Because indeed something makes me nervous,
therefore I can't come"

But I did,
I saw your ****,
I saw your face,
and I did.
Paradise comes quicker.
I wanted you,
but your thought did not want me.

Is today a good day
for barren knowledge?
Barren day

This is not real
this is not the place to be
I have cut my limbs

Am I passing to the other side
which side this time
Information coming from all sides
"This is my strength, this is my fall"

I just want to die and cry

Ahhh...you people...(me therefore)