Why did you choose to hurt me so?

I did nothing to you, yet you don't seem to stop

Still standing, smiling, there while I mop

Still waiting 'till the day I drop

What... What did I do to make you hate me so?

No answer will I ever receive from thee

And I'll always stay eternally an empty hole

Let's continue to hope?

No

Instead, I'll be the one to sit and rot

As you watch when I finally waste away against the background in my usual spot

Stop breathing air for the last time and go to death's arms for the warmth

The warmth I was denied ever since I was born

When you had sworn to despise me even when I wasn't shown

You'll be so happy when I finally crumble, wouldn't you, God?

Tell me - tell what have you got out of this?

What have you gained from my inner torments and tears?

What have you gained from observing the demons feeding off my fears?

Would you even dare tell a begging sinner and an unworthy opponent like me this much?

No. I honestly don't think you would dare

Why should you even bother to care?

It doesn't matter right now, does it?

I'm a lost cause for you, oh, greatest of all

Just **** me off quickly and end my painful crawl

Let me go melt into the nearby shadows for good and release the burden

From those who I cherish but they don't seem too certain

I'm not sure they will care enough either if I disappeared at dawn

Drown and choke on the waves of despair and the wicked spawn

Is there a chance for me in this at all?

Ah, again, I'm asking about things you wouldn't bat an eye to

But it's so infuriating to do so

I want to scream, trash and shove you until you bleed

Need you to show me what's the reason for your need to succeed

I'm just another human being interviewed with greed

Another sad thing who everyone coats with spit

Another poor sight threw over the side of the ship

The madness consumes me and my true self is beginning to dissolve

It's a fast decision I'm trying to solve

All I ever wanted was to be loved

Oh, please, I beg you one more time before I fall, tell me that at least

Is there any way I could get some sleep...?