one dinner. just one ******* meal PLEASE i just want to have one meal without hearing you curse me under your breath.

yes my brother spilled his drink.

ONE ******* SPILL.

one.

spilled.

soda.

that’s what ******* set you off huh


THATS IT??

crying my ******* eyes out because

all i wish is to be okay.

i just want to be ******* okay

i want to know how it feels like to be in a loving family.

where i have both parents.

where my father isn’t abusive

where my mother isn’t struggling.


where i’m- loved.


and now, i tremble at the sound of footsteps walking by.

trembling, shaking, as i hear the shouting.

it’s my fault isn’t it

if i weren’t born none of this would happen.


none.


of.


it.


now here i am.

sobbing in the bathroom.

locking myself in the bathroom.


hoping i could at least figure out how to survive.


i just need to survive

move out when i’m 18,

think i’m crazy?

if only you ******* knew what happens at home.


all i really feels by now is pain and sadness.