Youd never get it How intense all of it felt The feeling of one I didnt want pressed against my back with arms wrapped around me The relief i felt when an old friend came to talk and gave me room to breathe However I was still locked in place Unable to refuse a sloppy meeting of lips The horrible longing for someone speeding right by you Knowing him The desire was always there before Like a spark That grew into flames when I saw him That exploded into a raging forest fire last night Trying to figure out the expression on his face Concentration? Sadness? What? I could never figure him out I also heard bad things last night I didnt know what to make of them Had I been lied to? Trying to figure it out Listening But I cant Blaring speakers and noisemakers Combined with a desperate grab for my attention Arms like chains around my body A plea not to listen Not to look Dont tell me what to do I'm not yours Can you people stop assuming that? I told him I didnt like kissing you I didnt like any of it I thought thatd make him feel better But it only felt as if he was running away Why run away And text me as soon as he arrived home Apologizing again It's all so intense I might cry again I miss him I dont want to I dont want anything