where
will
you
be
in three
years?

i have no idea.
much less where i'll be in three weeks
even three *******
days...
hours.
why do people insist
on setting goals?
everyone pushes it on me
SET GOALS! IT'LL MAKE YOUR LIFE BETTER!
the only thing
that would make my life better
is someone shooting me in the face
dramatic, maybe
but true.

dad wants to know
my sisters want to know
my friends want to know
what my plan is.
my plan is
to not have a plan
plans disappoint
and haven't i been disappointed
enough

people don't get
that you can't set goals
when you're life is more unpredictable
then a menopausal mother
when you don't know
if you'll have a home
right this second
or ever
setting goals
is setting yourself up
not for success,
like all those suits say
but for a lifetime
of regret
and a swaying noose
at 62
...how about not.

life dreams?
counselor.
performance
poet.
but they are empty
full
graves
tombstones
that i have coddled
for years
not any
more.
i will not rest my head
on a bed
made for something dead
anymore.
dead things
are not good
foundations
dead things
are not good
for coddling

they

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