You've left me so miserable
With all these life challenges
I am unable to continue wearing this mask
I'm expected to be this happiest, craziest
Child in this so called family
I think I might be losing my sanity

Whenever she's around I'm at my lowest
How am I supposed to cope?
I'm tired of faking everything
How did you even allow heaven to take
You away from me when you were all I had?
I wish you took your phone with
So I could communicate with you
But who am I kidding, what I'm asking
For will never be legal

I thought time was supposed to heal wounds
But instead I'm incredibly bruised
Inside out and in every way possible
I thought everyone deserved a second shot
At everything but why were you denied one?

This life thing isn't for me
Premeditated ****** on my mind
Twenty-four-seven
But I think dying in my sleep would
Be less painful

Listen
I hope you can see my eyes glitter like
crystal
I hope you can hear me lie to these humans
When they ask me if I'm okay and I tell them
"it's just tears of joy"
I hope you can feel the demons I'm surrounded
By at night
I hope you understand why I'm tired,
extremely drained of having to fight
With inner demons

And trust me when I say I wanna
break up with my anxiety
It been a long term relationship
But it lacks plenty of love
I'm depressed, I say this with pride.
My scars will never heal for as long as
I'm alive.

Come back and take me with.

-Liaa