I havent written in so long
because writing reminds me of you
reminds me of the memories we share together
the love we hold in our hearts for one another
the distance that feels like it will forever be between us.

i miss you
more than i could put into words
but the pain that i feel in my heart is more than missing you
it's longing
longing for you to hold me in your arms again
to kiss away all the fears and doubts that linger in my head
the fear that you will leave again
that the face i cherish so much, that is so precious to my heart
i will never see again.

i'm scared,
scared you'll fall out of love with me
or that you're not even in love with me at all.
these fears eat away at me constantly.
they dont let me sleep, they dont let me think
i feel like i am suffocated in my mind
trapped in a cage.

i hope that one day i will see you again
and everything will be, the same.