I'm scared to live
In a world with no taste.
A place where everyone has cuts
On their wrist, stomach, and waist.
I'm scared to die
The last feeling of being uncomfortable.
The thought of still living and waking up in a hospital.
I hate the sense of knowing what's to come
I hate the feeling of being numb.
I don't want to feel any more feelings
I don't want to feel any more healing
I want to disappear
not die
just to disappear.
And be alone.