do you ever avoid looking at someone because their rejection would make you feel worthless
Do you ever sit in the corner or in the back of the room, simply to have your back to the wall
   do you ever look away feeling like someone is too good, too radiant for you, above your level
DO you ever wish you could hide your face, your body, your presence entirely
dO you ever feel completely overwhelmed at the thought of the life you have left
    Do you ever sit alone in you car, in your room, on the edge of your bed trying to find silence and not knowing what to do with it when you find it
do you ever remember the first time someone looked at you and determined you were less
Do you ever draw closer to someone knowing you can focus on them and they will never focus on you
  dO you ever mirror the people around you, trying desperately to seem normal, to seem like you understand and agree
DO you ever avoid speaking because once something is out of your mouth it’s in the universe, in the air, and actually exists
do you ever?
do you?