how can i feel
every painful feeling
at one single second
and fail to implode?
please make me a star
that can cave in
on itself and take
all that once was matter
-all that once mattered-
and fade it within
to only nothing.
please make me a black hole
of everything i used to be
because the absence
of my light,
a lifetime of night,
sounds better than
to keep shining.