i haven't felt that familiar sting since the world left me behind. for a while i tried to convince myself that i was happy.
for a while i entertained the tongue of a cowardly lion and forced myself to forget what love felt like and let lust in. it was when he begged me to lose my cowardice that i realized he was only in it for the golden fur he wore to give himself that sense of pride of conquering my kingdom.
for a while i stuffed those nervous poppies into my pillow to seep into my dreams at night. i couldn't banish them, though; you can't escape what you're a part of.
for a while i gave oil to the tin man, who in turn left me alone in the middle of nowhere, like a scarecrow, or like a child waiting for his father to return from the grocery store. the tin man promised me care and attention, but i guess only oz has that kind of privilege.
i haven't felt that familiar sting since the world left me behind. for a while, i tried to convince myself that i was happy; but i instead found my way back to the black and white pains of kansas. there is no place like home.