The end is near. I don't know what there is to go on now. I feel so alone and broken.
I have love in my heart! It feels like a throne was taken, wasted away. I do not know what else to say.
I feel deserted and I know I do not deserve it. I tried so hard in my life. I sacrifice my own to give to them. So, I feel like I don't even matter.
Β Β Then why do I bother to stay on this earth? It's because of my 88 year old father. Once he is gone from this world. Upon that day! I feel there's no other reason to stay.
I'm going to slip out the back door. I'm going to go away. When I am gone. Then what will people say?
No one will know where I will be. Then I will see, how they will get along without me.
Until then I'll just pretend That everything is okay.
My heart is broken. My heart is shattered. So much for being a father. :(