I am ashamed of these tears
I continue to make mistakes
I continue to not understand
I learn things the hard away
I try to love you in my own way
Its messy
It doesn’t always make sense
It can be loud and obnoxious
Sometimes even annoying
The last few days were hard
I was tough on you
Only because I saw potential
Only because I was trying to spare you from a type of pain
But when I try to help
You push me away
You scowl
You frown
You feel pressured
I cant help someone who thinks he doesn’t need any help
He thinks that everything will always just fall into place
I cane make you see that your wrong
You cant even dream of being wrong because of pride ego and tradition
You always need to be right!
I cant bring myself to apologize now
I feel small for trying to do the right thing
You wont even acknowledge me
I know I am not like you
I know we are both different
But sometimes I feel like I don’t even know you
I don’t know where we are going
I don’t know how this will end