I won’t get too close to you.

I can only give you so much,
It’s dark inside my heart,
And I don’t dare reveal a word.
I fear the consequences,
I’m scared.
Scared to love for the first time.

Take a look at me now.

You wouldn’t remember me, I’m all spread out.
And I never would have been this way,
If you hadn’t left me lonely.
That day when you stopped isn’t over
And I don’t think the pain ever will.

You have been such a gentleman.

You have seen some tears and pain.
But I still can’t let it happen.
I’m sure it never will,
It’s not your fault, it’s mine and his.
But I’m about to reach my limit
And I’m anxious for your reaction.

You never truly left.

There’s a place in me where you still linger.
Where your voice leaks through the cracks in my heart,
Your smile patiently waits for a kiss,
And your fingertips forever rest in my hands.
The worst is my idle love for you:
It can’t act; it can only hold on to what isn’t there.

You’ve given me more than I deserve.

Tonight I need you… and tomorrow,
But that’s all it will be, never more.
Part of me is never going to be ready
And another part doesn’t want to let go.
Through hurting myself I am hurting you.
Yet I won’t let you in.

I can’t help but to dwell.

You are only an idea now, and maybe you always were.
Something so **** beautiful
Can’t end with such sadness.
But I don’t think imagination
Can splinter a girl’s heart to scraps.
But I don’t think imagination
Can torture nightly dreams.

You are the same.

Perfectly you, matchless,
Unlike any other.
And part of me will always be yours.
But everything does come to an end,
No matter the beauty or ugliness.
And that’s where my history repeats.

I can’t count the mistakes.

I’m sorry for making you decide.
I’m sorry for the conflictions.
I’m sorry for the change in you.
I’m sorry for the pain.
I’m sorry.
For everything I ever caused.