And you...
You never could quite lift me up, without keeping me down

My emotions were so deeply meshed
I never thought to
pull back,
disconnect,
observe

I couldn't have if I wanted to - then

The years rolled on though

Fortitude found me

Wrapped its arms around me
Opened my eyes, to what my heart had been  concealing

I pulled back, disconnected...
observed

And I found myself in a dark and unforgiving place
And i stayed for a while. 
....a long while, really

This catharsis was painful,
Slow, and methodical

But....

I dug myself out, with nothing but fortitude to guide me

And..... I..... rose.