What should I do to help me sleep?
Carry on counting those blasted sheep?
I count them in a field but just get frustrated.
On my much evaded sleep, I am fixated
I’ve tried counting the ewes jumping fences
My brain is still alert and so are all my senses.

The reason I fail to fall into a much needed slumber
Is a deep rooted fear, my problems encumber.
The Narc fills my head and my heart, though I try
To forget what I feel, move on and not cry
It’s hard, I won’t lie, I must forget what I feel
It hurts me so much I honestly thought it was real

The love, the connection felt so true to me
His lies and his cheating proved that it couldn’t be.
I went back and gave him chance after chance
and all he’d did was lead me another merry little dance
The situation gave him power, he’s a narcissist you see
That’s why he’s moved just along the road from me

He enjoys causing turmoil and drama in peoples lives
Almost as much as he enjoys seducing other men’s wives!
I fell under his spell and walked straight into his lair
The were red flags galore but I wasn’t aware
Of the destruction he’d cause and the havoc he’d create
Heartache and pain, he wasn’t my fate.

I gave him two years of my beautiful life
Yet in the end all I reaped was trouble and strife
I love and adored him, I gave it my all
Then I found out about all the others, how could he be so cruel?
I gave him my soul,  the love of my life, my universe
Luckily I escaped alive, it could’ve been in a hearse!!