If I knew all the times
I got it all wrong.
Showed up too late
for their funerals.
Massaged masculinity,
who made matters worse.

If I knew all the times
I doubted myself.
Showed me mirages,
two miles, too late.
Confronting over-confidence,
who coxed intelligence.

If I knew all the times
I doubted myself.
Showed me your type,
simple, slim, & selfish.
Changing my character
for a crafted coy box.

If I knew all the times
I got it all wrong.
Showed up for understudy,
only to play the part.
I wouldn’t be getting roses,
from someone else

If I knew all the times
I got it all wrong.
I wouldn’t know,
how to get it right.