to you my unknown angel
thou seest not what stands forth thee
thou  seest not a lady
bearing forth her burdens for centuries
looking for some one to find me and set me free of my misery
i sees only in my dreams an angel to help me
find my way in these times of terror and unknown pleasure
searching all my life for this angel...
coming thus far ....
and found non as true as my dreams
perhaps been looking in wrong places.
most of me feel that ,that person is long from near in reaching me
or maybe if god wills
there be'ist no angel for me  
that can blow away the pain the burns so long inside me
and can finally set me free

my life is but a game
a game in the hands of the gods
those mighty hands that toss me around
up and down
giving me the pleasures of happiness
and weighing it twice with pain
i hide my tears and pain with
smiles and laughter
not to trouble those dear to me
cant let them see this selfish side
this lust and greed that grows inside

it must be me.... that feels this way
for every one says other wise
perhaps the times not right
perhaps.... that times near!
for when the hand of fate shall change on me
hopefully for the better this year