You standing there-
quiet-
composed-
beautiful.
The shock of breaking is still
crystal
clear.
"Forget about me."
You say those words,
smiling.
You say those words,
easily.
Without a hint-
of-
pain.
...But won't forgetting, won't leaving,
won't that be a form of betrayal?
I wish I could hate you.
I wish I could cry, right here, right now.
The tears don't come
A memory that hurts-
"Who would you die for?"
You awkwardly fidget.
I force a smile.
"Just kidding!"
I don't miss your pathetic, relieved expression.
A memory I treasure-
"I'll stay with you until you find happiness."
Your gentle words;
I could do nothing but cry.
But, hey-
is it okay to fake, to lie, to sin,
to keep the one you love, need, beside you?
But now-
all I want is to fulfill that wish
a little boy made on a dandelion a long time ago.
Rain starts falling.
Hysteric rain.
I used to think..when I was with you-
This kind of happiness should be illegal
"Thank you."
You smile-truly,
and start trembling.
It's faint-
but I see it.
I want to cry.
"Thank you."
You expression is all I've been looking for, all I need.
I want to cry
I won't run away anymore.
"Thank you."
I'll take this lesson you taught me to my heart,
and continue walking on that clear glass road.
I want to cry
You leave.
And finally, I cry.
Tears of sadness,
Tears of breaking,
Tears of despair,
and
Tears
of
joy.
Truly, thank you.
*Thank you for everything.