An apology to myself

Oh god, why did I listen
And why did I stay
Why did I just let her control me
Use me
All for her to just stab me in the back
And I just let it happen
Even though I saw what was happening

In a way, it was all my fault
I’m hurt because of me
I gave too much trust
I gave too much love
And it ended in hell for me
I’ll never get my pride back

Dear myself
Please forgive me
For I was not thinking
I let you get hurt
And now we suffer daily for it
One day
I hope you can forgive me
For everything I did to you