I've been worrying
About how I am feeling

Sometimes...
Oftentimes...
I want my feelings...
To stop
And I can't make them
Because I feel that my feelings
Aren't always good for me
With their torments
And criticisms
And not 'good enough's
They seem to rise and crackle
Like fireworks let loose
And I wonder if there is a way
To make me stop feeling them
For good

And so, one day
I prayed to feel like a Buddha

I don't know what I was expecting...
Peace, tranquillity, joy?

Instead my feelings intensified
And I don't mean, just the 'good' feelings
I mean, all of my feelings
The good ones and the awful ones
And I wondered - can this be correct?
Have my prayers been ignored?

I forgot about my prayers for a while
And carried on feeling things just as before
And then one day I pondered
And I wondered…
What if my prayers have been answered after all
But in a different way?

Perhaps I am feeling like a Buddha after all...
Because isn't the Buddha an enlightened human being
Capable of feeling all things
And I am feeling
So many feelings
All of which make me who I am

And the feelings that I feel
Provide me with information about the world
The terrible things and the good things
And if I felt only joy, only peace or only tranquillity
Then I guess I wouldn't bother to try and change the world for the better
And that wouldn't be the way of a Buddha

So, maybe now I have begun to feel like a Buddha
I can act like a Buddha
And perhaps make a difference?