I see myself as someone who is quite
easy to forgive, easy to forget
Some days I take "what's there to forgive?" mentality to the extreme
unhealthy, even

But you have to understand
one who loves deeply, gets hurt deeply also

I sewed your secrets under the skin of my back where no one would ever find
I locked the hurricanes and tornadoes you flung against me
I let not one of the nights spent crying and the days filled with fear out of my front door
Don't you see all the unfinished business tattooed around the tip of my fingers?

How dare you mistook these arms for buffet
And my loyalty for rain boots
You wore only when it rained
And discarded as soon as they're worn

You knew how afraid I was to trust people
You knew
And still you had to break it in the worst possible way
You choke me with tears

I would rather suffer my broken heart,
than endure the suffering that is coming to you
What a terrible thing you will carry inside you
for the rest of your life
How can you step into the sun
with so much darkness sleeping behind your eyes?

I can say with absolute certainty that everyone was at fault
You were at fault
I was at fault
No matter the percentages, we were all taking parts in this massacre of feelings
No matter how much sorry we throw,
they won't make up for the enormous amount of holes we stabbed into each other
Thank you, I said to you
For letting me learn how to deal with hatred
For letting me recognize my weaknesses

Today, I forgive you
Maybe today, I'll stop talking to God about you