just finished crying for the past hour. im so serious when i say this but living with a mental illness is so ******* hard. nobody talks about this. i’m really now starting to realize in college that i’m not perfect and how that’s ok. but nobody talks about this ****. nobody talks about what it’s like to be at school and have a anxiety attack out of absolutely nowhere. nobody talks about the drained feeling you get after having an attack. nobody talks about how when you feel your best and a couple of days later feel like absolute ****. nobody talks about this. i’ve had to figure this **** out all by myself and had to pick up the pieces even though i’m broken. nobody talks about how strong a person is for being able to do that. nobody talks about this **** and they need to. like **** dude. this **** is hard as hell and that this is something that a lot of people deal with. and ****, nobody even talks about how this isn’t something that just gets cured. this is something that you constantly having to deal with day after day after day. and that having a mental illness isn't something you can just get rid of. it’s something that you have to learn to deal with in the best way possible. nobody talks about that ******* ****. nobody talks about how you constantly have to push yourself and push yourself to keep going and to try to keep getting better and staying positive. like this **** is ******* tiring and i’m exhausted but you know what? i keep ******* pushing and i keep ******* living no matter how exhausted i am and nobody talks about how other people feel that way and how it’s ok to feel tired and how these people are strong as ****. but you know what? I'm going to talk about it. I'm going to talk about what its like to live my life and to choose to continue living it and nobody is going to stop me. not the commenters, not the abusers, and not the demons that WE constantly have to battle.