i tried to **** myself last night
i dont know what to feel
how to act
am i supposed to act natural
or pretend that im ok
only a few people know
do i tell any others
people who know me personally
such as relatives
because they dont know
are the supposed to know
do i keep it a secret forever
will telling them bring me closer with them
or make me the suicidal outsider, black sheep of the family
im scared