Maybe if you didn't have a bad sleep? Maybe if I had wore a different jumper? Maybe if you liked your coffee differently? Maybe if I didn't listen like that? Maybe if we didn't get into the National Gallery for free? Maybe if I was less interested in the Terracotta Warriors? Or more? Or if I didn't miss you pointing out that ***? Maybe if you weren't in a relationship. Maybe if I wanted one. Maybe if you also ordered the ceviche? You nearly did. Maybe if I drank gin neatly? Maybe if you wanted me, like you said you would? Maybe if I wasn't so greedy for the romanticisation? Maybe if you didn't think I would break this beautifully? Maybe if I didn't think I would break this beautifully? Maybe if.