What’s the point of living my whole life’s a joke
Sit in my shower while I cry away and choke
I’m joking I smile and laugh all day long
I lied I can’t pretend that nothings wrong
I pat my own back and I hold my own hand
Loving me is something you won’t understand
All I want is love, hugs, honesty, and you
Hard to find peace like despicable me I’m Gru
I hate falling in love because it’s never real
It doesn’t help with the emptiness that I feel
But what if I actually found something true
Like a hopeful chance between me and you
Sometimes I wonder who would actually care
Like if you saw my name on the news up there
Depressed teenage kid finally commits suicide
I wonder who would actually care if I died
Everyone says I’m here for you I must be blind
I can never just kick back and unwind
It’s always something new every single day  
So I pretend I’m fine and soak in tears anyway
Thought I found love but it was just a mistake
I think about the pleasure of my life to take
Found happiness in some friends but I’m sad
What if I do something that makes them mad
What If they abandon me like everyone else
Will I be all alone when my heart melts
I got a few friends that I don’t wonder about
The ones I know love me inside and out
We’re all going through things yet I wonder
Can I make everyone happy like I ponder
Im crazy pulling my hair out as a stress reliever
Went from really religious to a non believer
That’s a whole topic that I’d rather just avoid
Can’t tell if they love me so now I’m paranoid
I’ve been broken for a long time yet I’m healing
Try to correct my errors to be more appealing
How can I make all their lives better
I wonder if she wrote me would I read her letter