but you're a writer she said to me as if my being able by dumb luck, or innate ability to string, like ducks in a row words that seemed to work in a line made me better better able to describe the indescribable It's harder to explain to describe the things that are close to you, mean the most to you the things that most move you that make your heart beat faster, stronger make you want to live so much longer make moments into eternities Oh surely I know that when so moved, I can spout and pour from my lips or finger tips, streams of words pretty some, perhaps and even close to the mark, by chance firing into the dark it often feels as though I have failed in my goal the words that come the feelings they evoke like the after image of a flash bulb a reflection, of a ghost of what the words mean or what you mean to me