You laugh like you have never been lonely You forget that I know you That I see the lump in your throat hiding
You clean up after others like you have no mess yourself that is alright my love I see the cracks in your elbow grease
You are just like your mother A warrior in the battle of suffering How could anyone not love that about the both of you?
You disperse tissues and cotton sleeves and squeezes to anyone who even blinks a tear towards you
Your mother has a handkerchief for occasions like this.
Behind you I focus on the way your curls twist Chestnut waves and rings I've focused on them before in times like this
How is the familiar so comforting? Your father's glasses and upright chest Your sister's side hugs and repetitive "how are you's?" Your mother's matching necklace-earrings and observing, always on watch Your husband's one Old Navy button up and dispatched humor The way, these days, I want to hug you and never let go.
I yearn to be a thief Can I rob your father's pain? Your mother's pain? Your sister's pain? Your pain? If I am present long enough will you let me help you?
When you called me and told me you could never imagine losing your best friend I repeated the cadence in your voice and the words for hours on a long drive home I reminded myself that I always hope I go first So I never have to see what the world is like without you.
She is gone and all of us remain to make sure that we relationally gain Even among all of life's pain