Oh, God, you hurt me so much Saturdays spent in tears all alone My mom watching me and me watching the phone My mom saying, "you have to cut this down"
And I did - and I slept in the belly of the beast I burnt for nights of desire deep I got high on Hatari, men, and my own **** I slept for two months, widely asleep
Mini messages that feel maximized and meaning all Starving every day with a tense chest Feeling delayed, if at all only merely checked Everything feels like a pulsating alert My emotional poverty that you fed You thought you loved me - well... you probably did not
Was it really love? What the **** did I go through? I still don't know maybe I never will you planted a seed but the seed was me sprouting you sprinkled me but the power was all the time within how to get it back well I don't have to try