Mar 2013
Wait, Hold on
Just let me see.
You want me, to talk about me?
Well, that’s a first,
Certainly not the worst
Suggestion I’ve been asked
Usually among angry slurs of
******* or ******* Jack ***
I guess those are the feelings
I tend to instill
On people when I impose my will
Now I know it’s a little dark
And yet thinking
**** this is just the ******* start?
But wait
There’s a light at the end of
This tunnel you’re traveling
But move fast because the walls of my mind
Are unraveling
And I know it’s startling
But to me this is ordinary.
Everything falling apart and being built back up
A new person every time I wake up
Now listen hear me and sit down and shut up
I’ve been quiet for too **** long.
At least four years spent bending to the will
Of people far less strong
But then it all changed.
I opened my mouth and let out my mind
It took only once and I had all their minds enraptured
So incredibly captured
By the skinny kid seizing the podium
Using his words to
Obliterate the opinions they held of him.
Now let me pause here
Before we go any deeper
Let me make it clear
There is a hunter
Camouflaged inside the words painting the woods
Hiding yet hinting at something you'd never believe could
Have happened to him
So watch your jokes
And watch your phrases
Because my life went through
Those phases.
Yet my laughter at the scabs at which you pick
The injuries that still make me sick
Is still genuine
Despite what everyone thinks
So please just stop your incessant
“That’s not funny”
Followed by your gaze upon me
Because I see it in your eyes
The look I’ve so grown to recognize
That look of pure ******* pity
And that my friends is worse
And my parents do it the worst.
See they feel responsible
For not predicting the improbable
But No one could
Including me
Seeing my thieving neighbor outside my backdoor
Not knowing what he was there for
I let him in to steal what I didn’t know I had.
My innocence
But in a sense
It doesn’t matter.
Because I try not to dive too deep into the past
Because I’m here and finally happy at last
So here let’s bring it full circle I believe you asked
About me.
Just let me see.
You want me, to talk about me?
Well, that’s a first,
Certainly not the worst
Suggestion I’ve been asked
Usually among angry slurs of
******* or ******* Jack ***
I guess those are the feelings
I tend to instill
On people when I impose my will
Now I know it’s a little dark
And yet thinking
**** this is just the ******* start?
But wait
There’s a light at the end of
This tunnel you’re traveling
But move fast because the walls of my mind
Are unraveling
And I know it’s startling
But to me this is ordinary.
Everything falling apart and being built back up
A new person every time I wake up
Now listen hear me and sit down and shut up
I’ve been quiet for too **** long.
At least four years spent bending to the will
Of people far less strong
But then it all changed.
I opened my mouth and let out my mind
It took only once and I had all their minds enraptured
So incredibly captured
By the skinny kid seizing the podium
Using his words to
Obliterate the opinions they held of him.
Now let me pause here
Before we go any deeper
Let me make it clear
There is a hunter
Camouflaged inside the words painting the woods
Hiding yet hinting at something you'd never believe could
Have happened to him
So watch your jokes
And watch your phrases
Because my life went through
Those phases.
Yet my laughter at the scabs at which you pick
The injuries that still make me sick
Is still genuine
Despite what everyone thinks
So please just stop your incessant
“That’s not funny”
Followed by your gaze upon me
Because I see it in your eyes
The look I’ve so grown to recognize
That look of pure ******* pity
And that my friends is worse
And my parents do it the worst.
See they feel responsible
For not predicting the improbable
But No one could
Including me
Seeing my thieving neighbor outside my backdoor
Not knowing what he was there for
I let him in to steal what I didn’t know I had.
My innocence
But in a sense
It doesn’t matter.
Because I try not to dive too deep into the past
Because I’m here and finally happy at last
So here let’s bring it full circle I believe you asked
About me.
