i am sorry

i am restless
i am tired
i am alone
and i love to be it

you wanted me to be like you
you are comfortable
you are attached
you are emotional

i am sorry

i was not who you wanted
but you were not what i needed
and i care more about my needs
than i do your desires

you will love another
even if you say you won't
i can see the future
and i know yours is bright

i am sorry

watching you hurt was more painful
than the thousands of needles i've had in my skin
it broke my heart more than words can describe
but i had to watch and fixate on how i broke you

you are a flower
and i am a rock
you are so beautiful, and free flowing
and i am solid, secure, and routined

it would have never worked