I will not pay eternally for my mistakes.
I know I did you harm, I admit.
Things between us are still bad,
how could we forget?
If you avoiding me is helping you heal, then do what it takes.

How can I not hate myself for hurting you?
Makes me want to harm myself.
Should my days that are happy be far and few?
Seems I should stop 'trying' since you've placed me on a shelf.  

I'm frustrated with you, I thought I had made my amends!
What more do you want from me and to what ends?
Now I'M hurting, I must've had it coming!
The hurt I did to you, is to me at last returning!